For Jan Dravecky, joy came after she released control over her life . . . into the hands of the God who had been waiting to receive it. A Joy I'd Never Known traces Jan's painful journey from control to surrender, winding from her protected childhood through a series of tragic losses, her husband's cancer and the ultimate amputation of his arm, the downward spiral of a devastating clinical depression, the lack of understanding on the part of fellow Christians, and finally, to hope, growth, and joy as Jan found the help she needed. Jan's gripping, personal story sheds much-needed light on depression, anxiety attacks, and the need for a balanced, surrendered lifestyle. And for all who feel the lingering shame of emotional trauma or the need to 'keep it together' at any cost, this book offers empathy and hope for change . . . and points the way to a joy beyond imagination.